The journal lets you write about a day from your life.
The photo on the left shows what Jeff Harris was doing on that day.
August 7, 2006
I found out today that my grandfather has colon cancer. He has to start chemotherapy immediately as it has already spread to his liver. My grandfather, a retired doctor, was pretty down upon hearing this news. He said that chemo is a dance with death. I want to cry, but I'm at work.
August 4, 2006
After weeks of harassment from my boss, a failed EKG, a few Mental Health Doctor appointments, I went to a cardiologist to find out what the heavy chest, pounding heartbeat, blurry vision and dizzy feelings were from. The Doctor set me up for a Holter monitor, a battery of tests and nitro pills. They suspect damage to my heart from a large amount of stress. My boss isn't worth it, my job isn't worth it, and fixing a customer computer isn't worth it. My daughter IS worth it! I don't want to die.
August 1, 2006
I'm not usually a hand shaker when I meet people, but for some reason, I decide I want to shake this guy's hand that I'm being introduced to. I can sense his resistance (he's avoiding eye contact), so I firmly present my hand with a smile on my face and see him sigh and grudgingly extend his... stump. So I shook it.
July 29, 2006
My boyfriend turned 35 today. He is old now! I hope he doesn't start wearing khakis with golf shirts tucked-in, and start parting his hair on the side. I will be so disappointed.
July 24, 2006
We could be together if I stayed... maybe. Or maybe I would just be wasting the best years of my life with a man who doesn't melt into a pool of total infatuation when he's around me, like I do when I am around him. I can't take the chance. I am leaving. So much for my April 14th journal entry. Damnit.
July 23, 2006
My wife left me last month and I have been so down. Today I was so out of order to her and used my son as a pawn. I was also awful to her mother. I am not going to wallow in resentment because I had forgotten that her mother's husband has only a month or so left. He has cancer. So that puts it all into perspective. He says he is grateful for the good things he has experienced but recognizes that the bad times were just as important otherwise he would not have known how good the good times were. "Illegitumus el carborundum"
July 22, 2006
My mom and brother died three years ago and my dad got married again six months after their death. He wanted a son... I am a 19 year old girl. Today he told me to move out because his wife has problems with me.
July 21, 2006
Why does everyone with good looking friends plaster photos of themselves all over the internet? It makes me wish my friends were as photogenic as the scene-whores.
July 13, 2006
Yo What Up. This is Girl Speak... you heard? Today we talked about our dreams and fears. We are mostly worried about the future and dying. We took polaroids, studied photographers from around the globe and Jeff Harris, you are one of them. Thank you for making your work and allowing this dialogue to exist. We would invite you to our class but unfortunately, you are a boy.
July 7, 2006
I went to a pirate party today and it was amazing. Yo ho ho.
July 1, 2006
I fell in love with my girlfriend's best-friend today. My girlfriend also happens to be out of the country. I hate cliches, and I hate this situation.
June 22, 2006
I wish I loved my husband as much as he loves me. That would be so cool. He's such a good guy I don't know what my problem is.
June 21, 2006
I have been on the computer all day. I am looking for a post regarding the negligence at St. Michael University School, Victoria. I had put a post on the Daily Nation website but now I can not find it. What a site, it does not have a proper working search button. Crazy I say. It is 9:14pm my time. 914 was my student number in Karima Girls High School. We wore red, white and green. We were black. We held a shield like that on the flag of Kenya.
June 19, 2006
I just found out I have cancer. My husband is out of town, and I have never felt more alone, I don't even know how to tell him, fuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkk.
June 6, 2006
I've been stoned for 11 days now.
June 5, 2006
We're postponing the church wedding, again. To be quite honest, I don't think we'll ever get married in the church - and that's fine by me because part of me thinks this could end. He's let himself go, and it's not fair. I have to be sexy and he gets to gain weight?! I dont think so.
May 31, 2006
I wondered today how long it will be before I am as clinically insane as my crazy neighbor, Rick. Something tells me not too much longer...
May 25, 2006
I sat on a bench underneath a garden of lilac bushes and tried to feed a chick-a-dee out of the palm of my hand. It was scared of me so I threw the food on the ground.
May 15, 2006
I just made plans to go on a road trip to Ottawa with my friend Jackie for this Wednesday. She needs to meet a professor to hopefully change a mark and keep her scholarship for next year. I'm not doing anything else so I thought I'd keep her company.
May 14, 2006
“I have the propensity to meet fascinating strangers on planes”... what a great line... well it’s true. I met a fascinating woman on my way to Boston. Our flight was delayed four hours and we just started to talk. It was almost as if I had known her my entire life! Her name is Audrey and she is on an adventure. Apparently she has made a life choice to travel, oh how I envy her. I wish her the very best and I told her to enjoy every single moment. She is on her way to the U.K. and will definitely have a lovely time backpacking through the countryside of England. Have a bloody good time Audrey! Wish I was there with you! You are such a great and awe-inspiring soul.
May 2, 2006
I'm anticipating a visit from the daughter I gave up for adoption 19 years ago. I wish every one could feel the joy that I do.
April 28, 2006
A pit bull killed a boxer in Norma's driveway today and got blood all over my car. It was quite traumatic.
April 20, 2006
If one person wishes me a happy 4/20, I refuse to dignify their comment with a response. They don't know how happy April 20th really is... it's the day I've decided to stop listening to the 'sensible' people in my life and move to Hawaii.
April 19, 2006
In exactly two months, I will have been out of college for a year. All my friends have "real" jobs with "real" salaries and I'm teaching English and Art part time at an afterschool daycare, half-assing my other part time job as reluctant unpaid caretaker of my dad's lamp business, and living at home. I'm so depressed over my situation, and so angry at myself, but too scared to take the next step in existence. My portfolio will never be good enough; it has become my excuse for not living the dream I have always dreamed of living.
April 14, 2006
Yesterday a boy I met in a bar called me to say "I am hungover and I can't get off my couch, but I am calling you because you said if I didn't call you today, I didn't have a chance!" Tonight we went on our first date. After 20 minutes of being with him, I knew that this is the one I will marry some day.
April 5, 2006
I watched a man die today. It was peaceful and there was nothing that could be done, but i can't help feeling a little jaded that this was just another day at work for me while being the most horrible day for the many that loved him.
April 4, 2006
Yesterday my boyfriend's sister called and asked if we were engaged, she said she heard it from her dad. I thought she had accidentally spilled the beans so I kept quiet, thinking my boyfriend was going to propose soon. Today I found out it's not true. it was just a rumour.
April 2, 2006
I almost died -- imagine that. We flew off a 25 foot cliff in my car. We were on our way to a canyon hiking trip in the Canyonlands of Utah. We avoided a rabbit and found ourselves hurling through the air. Not a scratch. Not even a post accident drink to take the edge off. We were in a dry county.
March 25, 2006
I want to sleep with my son's coach. Everything about him is dreamy and I think he feels the same about me. I won't do it because it would really mess things up for my son and the coach, but it sure would be nice. I wonder if it would hurt if I kissed him?
March 24, 2006
I came across a "Don't Wake Daddy" boardgame at a yard sale, and began to weep. The merchant stared at me unphased. "Five dollars." she said coldly. The last time I had played this game, I had woken up my real daddy with how loud me and my friend were that one sleepover. He had work at 5:30am.
March 21, 2006
I still have whiplash from a bad fall snowboarding...
March 16, 2006
I woke up to a phone call from Golds' Gym. I didn't like the way Mr Strickland the general manager was speaking to me, so I cut the conversation short. Then I googled my name.
